Everyday is million of choices

So I am sitting around one day- I think I was people watching- something that I do all the time.  I see people who are happy, sad, angry, aggravated.  Kudos to the happy person. But why the sad, angry, aggravated ones.  DId they have a bad day at work, or just a bad day in general. DId they go to the stroe only to find out that what they wanted the store did not have (I guess they could not find any substitutions)  Did two friends get into a fight? I sometimes will make up stories about people- funny ones.  I hate seeing people upset and angry- I mean we should be happy all the time- yes it is hard- things will tick us off- but will that tick go away after a minute or is the tick going to follow you around for the rest of the day and bring other people down with you.  That is your choice.
Everyday we make a choice, we make a choice to get out of bed in the morning- and for those people who just want five more minutes of bed time (this is me) think about the people that wish they could just have five minutes being out of bed. All of us drag going into work, but think about this: WE HAVE JOBS!!Another person would kill to have your job, no matter what it is.  You might be thinking ok buddy take the job, I will go home, watch tv, and what not... trust me you will get bored after a while. No fun staying home when no one else is around cuz they are working.  If you think you are having a bad day... well then how about that cancer patient who has to for another round of chemo, how about a first time mom losing her child from a miscarriage, or a mom gives birth to twins, but one passes.  Men and Women who are fighting for our country to make sure USA is going to be safe.  I do not hear them complining about their day.  Sure life is hard, if life was easy and if everything was given to us, then we would never learn anything, now would we? So suck it up and deal with life. 

Book

I am thinking of writing a book about my life and what is was lke gowing up with NF.  I have a title in mind- I have NF but it does not have me.. what do you think?  I think is sounds kinda cool- I am hoping to get started on it soon- maybe over Thanksgiving vaca- I do not know if I should write it out first or just go with the gusto and type it out.  I am going to keep a notebook with me at all times so if I think of anything to write, I can write it down in my book.  I have so many notebooks and journals, and books to read- I am obsessed with all of them.  I love books, notebooks, and journals.  I am picky about journals and notebooks, for one they need to be college ruled and the also have to have the spiral thingee so i get just flip it over and write. 

Sometimes

There are times when I feel pretty and then there are those times that I feel ugly.  Some days are better than others.  I still get self conscious when I talk to people that do not know that I have NF or that I am blind in my left eye, and I always wonder "what are they thinking? Are the thinking how come this girl's left eye is weird or drifty".. and so many other thoughts.  Then I sometimes will think, maybe they do not notice.  There have been times when I have told people about my condition and my eye and they simply say that they did not even notice. 
What I love about my job is working with children.  It seems children are the only ones that do not judge you, that you are perfect in their eyes and you have no flaws.  I  have some "bumps" on my arms and neck that the kids see and they say.. "Oh no Miss Jacki has a boo-boo.." and they kiss it and ask me if it is all better.  It is so hard to hold back tears of happines when they do that. I tell them that of course my boo-boo is better.  Sometimes they ask if I want ice for my boo-boo or a band-aid.. that is so heart warming that they care that much- and they are only TWO years old- I love my kids to death and they mean the world to me.  I am blessed that God has put them in my life- so therefore I have something to smile about everyday.