my first baby picture.  I think this is before I was diagnosed with NF

thth

Happy Day

Why does it seem that most of us are not happy with ourselves.  By this meaning, when people say.. I wish I had more money, I wish I had a big house, i wish I had a new car, i wish I looked like this and so on and so forth.  Of course I find myself saying these exact same things, especially with NF.  Of course I wish I did not have it and I wish I did not have the "bumps".  But I do and there is nothing I can do about it (yet- who knows maybe there will be a cure and they can go away) but for now it is what it is.  I am not going to get upset or dwell on something that I can't change.  All of us (in general) need to be happy with what we have instead of being upset and wishing on something that we do not have.  Guaranteed there are millions of people out there who love to switch places with me and there are people are there who have a lot less than I do and wish they had what I had.  I have a roof over my head, a wonderful husband, wonderful family and friends (Love you all), a good job, and so much more.  If only we took the time too look at we have- we have it good compared to a lot of people out there.  We just need to keep the faith and thank God every day that we get to get out of bed in the morning and do our thing. 

Love it

Randomness

I am a little upset with myself.  I keep saying that I am going to write something everyday on my blog and I have yet to succeed in doing so.  I am lucky if I do it once every other week.  I go to work, come home, cook dinner, shower, and then I go to school on-line for a few hours, and then make the lunches for the next day, and wash up for bed, and before I know it, it is just about 11:00pm. 
I was having pain on my right side, the same place I had my surgery when I was  nine years old.  So of course I was freaking out.  I know the pain back then was horrible- i could not even walk without help, and if I had to sneeze, I screamed cuz the pain in my side was brutal.  But what i do not remember is how the pain started- did it start out like this and just got worse, or was it bad right from the start.  Well anyway I have no more pain, so maybe it was just a pulled/strained muscle.  Most of the time when I get an "ouchie" I think the worst.  I kind of get into panic mode and want to see a doctor right away- just in case.  I know I should think negative, but I am a "what if girl". 

New Bumps

Ok so there are times when I think I notice a new bump, but I do not know if it has been there or if it a new one.  It does not bother me as much as it used to- it is who I am.  I e-mailed a research person from my NF doctors office about a study/research thing they are doing to try and get rid of the bumps that are underneath the skin- they want to do the face first. Have not heard anything, so I will just keep on e-mailing until I get somwhere.